What a week...

This has been one of THE longest weeks in a while. Not sure what has made it exceptionally long, but it just has been. 

I am not wishing my hours and days away, I am just wishing they were so painstakingly difficult. Although, I think the common trend for me is I have been forgetting to breathe. *insert eye roll* Why is that so hard??

It was a week filled with students who are losing their minds, forgetting all the hard work we've put in, and not being able to have a fully productive day. I'm TIRED! Add on top of that, this time change has whooped my rear! I can't seem to fall asleep at a reasonable time any more. So, I am hoping that it changes as I am staring down yet another Monday. 

This week has been a busy one as well, and some of that is by my doing. I don't know how to just sit still. However, picking up the extra cash side jobs are definitely fueled by the need to save money for our upcoming wedding. So, how do I turn the money away, when it is truly needed?

While this weekend was, in my mind, supposed to just be a weekend of being home... it hasn't quite worked out that way. Meanwhile, my hypersensitivity and overreactions are at a high. So, I've lost my cool over a small problem that could have easily been dealt with, and in the end was remedied, sort of. I am now left with the guilt of being a jerk, and the need for an apology that may not be well received. 

UGH! Do you ever just have those weeks where you just CAN'T anymore? This is one of those for me! Can life just take a hot minute to itself in the opposite corner from me, and we can start fresh tomorrow? 

Here's to a better week starting tomorrow, and another day closer to Spring Break! 

A little wedding talk...

It's been a minute since I've been here and have just written.

Wedding Plans... 

We have made some headway! We have booked our photo booth, DJ, up lighting, photographer, and we are just waiting on our tax returns to book our venue!!! 

I believe we are doing pretty fantastic at this rate! I am hoping to keep this momentum up, so that my plan of having everything paid off prior to walking down the aisle comes to fruition! We've laid out a savings plan, are getting ready to open a wedding account, and I have taken on 3 extra jobs, on top of teaching every day, to make sure I have enough cash flow coming in to make our day absolutely breathtaking. 

We have a few more things to consider, shop around for, and decide on. We got a quote on a cake last weekend. And, let me just say... this sampling deal was pretty tasty! We walked away with a dozen cupcakes that morning to take home and sample with my mom and brother! :) haha... The cupcakes were too good to walk away from. 

I did get to go with almost all of my maids to Alfred Angelo and play in February! My original idea of THE dress has changed, and changed for the BEST! Man, I put that dress on and didn't want to take it off. My girls modeled for me, and we have decided on a color for now. However, as our date gets closer, that could change. At least we have a ballpark idea. :) 

I have been to several wedding shows and have enjoyed myself and all the yummy goodies that come with that. I totally did about 3-4 drive-bys of my venue's booth and sampled a good amount of their hor dourves that I have to choose from. haha... I mean, who else was going to sample all that yumminess that was just sitting there begging to be eaten?? 

What I have begun to notice is, I have a bit of a commitment issue! I use to be fairly confident in deciding on what I like and what I don't like. I just go after what I want when I want it. However, this whole wedding planning business has brought out the commitment-phobe out in me. 

I guess I am afraid of making the wrong decision. I am nervous about putting the big bucks out for something that might not fully meet the vision in my head. I think I can maybe attribute this to the overwhelming amount of options that are available. What happens if I make a bad choice on an option in front of me??  

I just need to get out of my head, and choose with my heart like I normally do. Choose based on how it feels and remember that this day is about Freddy & I above all else. :) 

The planning has commenced, and the struggle is real! 

30 Years and...

I'm loving it! I have been 30 for a month and 6 days. The month of February was overwhelmingly lovely, I was sad to see it go. However, if February was any indication of what 30 is going to hold, my heart will be happy and filled with love, joy, and gratefulness. :) 

I turned 30 in the Gulf of Mexico sailing to Cozumel with my mom, my sister, my best friend from 6th grade, and a couple of family friends. Let me follow that up by saying, I truly, honestly, whole-heartily believe I have THE BEST mother in the ENTIRE world. She surprised me with all that loveliness in a surprise party, that I almost foiled. (Instead, I showed up almost 2 hours late! Whoops!) 

Cruising into 30 was the most incredible way to celebrate. I have so many wonderful memories that I will cherish and smile about for many years to come. 

I was so surprised and it took me a while to fully process the whole experience. (Which is maybe why it's taken so long to write about it... and return to my blog!) However, I don't think that I fully ever thanked my mom for everything that she did, or thanked My Lovey for helping to arrange the surprise party that kicked off my birthday week with an amazing beginning! (By the way, we partied on JT's birthday! Which makes it even more amazing!) 

So, here we go! 

Thank you Freddy B for being the amazing man that you are and really going out of your way to make sure that my 30th was special. Thank you for helping to get all of the local/semi-local people that are important to me in one room. I also want to say... thanks for letting me drag you through IKEA, even when you knew I was messing EVERYTHING up. Thank you for letting me just indulge in the sweetness of a special day! I love you mucho! I can't wait to be your wife! :) 

Thank you momma for being the bestest at all times! Even when I didn't understand it all. ;) I am sure on some days you weren't positive you'd let me live to 30, but I am sure glad you did! You really did a wonderful job of making sure that my 30th was nothing short of amazing! I couldn't have asked for a better event, or memory making experience. Thank you for making this the best birthday yet! I mean... There were even elephants in the pool!  I wouldn't have changed a single thing. (Although, you may say different!) I am thinking we really do need to make a yearly event of this girls' trip! 

Shannon, Sara, Amy, and Abby... Thank you all so much for being there to celebrate with me! I couldn't have asked for a better group to be trapped on a ship with. I will cherish every memory made and I am so honored to have you amazing ladies be part of those memories. I honestly miss our hourly bar meetings... FOR REAL!!! 

Take me back to Cozumel!!!!!